A few more hrs to book in timing...and ive jus booked out not longer than 12 hours ago...sighs..everyday is becoming something of a constant struggle against the great evils surrounding me everyday. Politics, cynicism, selfishness..it wasn't supposed to be like this..this should be a time for the strengthening of old bonds and the forging of new ones..thrust into the harsh realities of life..im finding it extremely hard to breathe...every breath is a suffocating agony...escaping from the place has ald become not a luxury but a time-out...for the recharging of my body to brave the storms that lie ahead the following week. I struggle to keep my cheerful exterior when inside of me my emotions are fighting this lonely war..backed with love from my family and dear. Its only recently that ive shown my suspect temperament. Thankfully ive my men..who prove to be a source of solace when the tough gets going..from my soccer buddies to my section. 26th jan..11th nov...a few more days and im left with 9 months..i can only look forward to that elusive date..while trying to avoid treading on potential potholes along the way that would culminate in a similar situation as the current weekend.
Ive taken it upon myself that yang's education is in my hands..whether or not he turns out a brilliant or a flop student..im the only one he can realistically turn to when he is helpless.
Also ive finally taken the step to obtain my driving liscense..im excited at the prospect but i do understand the difficulty i will face..nvm i will try my best anyway..
Currently my world is shrouded in a mist of negativity..and i cannot see beyond this fog..but i see a faint shimmering light...faint but definitely there..to guide me and pull me thru all that life can throw at me.
Baba tells me: "Build a firm foundation with the bricks others throw at you"
I will.

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