It hasn't been all smooth sailing recently..I don't know why too. Apparently I haven't been discharging my duties in a satisfactory way but I really do not comprehend, what is it that I've not done enough? Any job tasked to me I will get it done ASAP. Anything I do not understand I ask KL, or my superiors. Perhaps my IT skills are not exactly of a high standard but I believe I have put in effort to understand the various applications from scratch..yet I'm deemed surplus to requirements. Unappreciated? Yes very much. I do miss my Bravo days very much...I've tried so hard to blend in the new coy. Throughout my service term I've been posted here and there, yet I've always maintained my silence. I owe this to my country, I will go about my duties to the best of my abilities. No matter how hurt, how humiliated, how sad I may be..I swear I will clench my teeth and endure this final 3 months.
Without my enforcement, Yang's discipline has hit rock bottom. Friday's news about his teacher's complaint had really hit me hard and deep. I feel so disappointed and yet sorry that I've been neglecting him. As an elder bro I guess he really needs my attention...yet I'm too split up between so many people. He is not solely my responsibility but I guess I have to assume that sole role now.
I'm so sorry for my recent mood swings...especially to the people who support me the most...so sorry to hurt u baby..so sorry to spoil the class outing mood for you..
Soon I will book in, and it is yet another week of normal work. I hope I keep my cool no matter who provokes me, no matter who gives scathing remarks.
Your hugs are my solace for the turbulence of emotions every week. I miss you..so so much. :)

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