Its been ages since I last posted an entry...probably I've allowed lethargy to get the better of me since...
Its now past midnight, and Ive just finished bathing and am currently in a hibernating state in front of this computer. Today was Page One's cohesion event.. and surprisingly I stayed through the entire event. I hadn't expected myself to but I guess the Wii did have its charm ;)
3 months into the job..and truth be told..I have experienced some infuriating incidents which are pretty much inconvenient to divulge in this very public domain. However the job wasn't without its perks..most of the superiors are doing an admirable job and they have thus far guided me along with utmost patience...and for that I feel really thankful..moreover my colleagues have been a fun bunch to be about with and I no longer feel the isolation that draped me in a mist of depression and uncertainty in the initial months. I feel at ease...and no longer harbour intentions to give up. I guess I owe so much to this person who is so dear to me. Army, work, school...no matter the setting, Ive always struggled through the initiation phase..."credit" to my reclusive nature. Never have I been one to approach people...and I'm pretty lucky to have met people who bother to extend their warmth to miserable people like myself.
I'm now devouring books with an unprecedented intensity. Work, Read, Surf net, Watch movies...my life has settled itself into this slurring stagnancy...and some of my friends have pointed out that I lead a boring life...to a certain extent I do agree but I was never a "live life to the max" kinda guy...I derive pleasure not through an attainment of divine status at the local club nor do I please my senses by lubricating my throat with the musky scent of liquor...my idea of pleasure is cuddling up by my sofa and immersing myself in the literary beauty of Dickens' prose or Stoker's dark imagery. I also please myself by huddling close to her and appreciating "The Duchess" in its Victorian splendor. Or even an occasional concert by my favourite singer...though rare...thanks to the hefty price tag for the tickets...I just hope people understand my passive character and that all is entitled a fair shot at making a choice as to what type of character we want ourselves to be moulded into...
Daddy held a lengthy correspondence with me in the car yesterday with regards to my choice of major...even after 2 full years of honest contemplation, I still haven't got a clue as to what I wish for myself to partake in NUS...Following my heart to do English? Or allowing my rationality to get the better of me and impose upon myself a less favoured subject such as Economics/ Accountancy etc?
Murky as the future may seem...I am filled with optimism nevertheless, that my choice will be supported by my parents and all that matter...Lethargy has once again claimed me victim...as it starts to hold my mind and body asunder...I shall end this entry with a note that is NOT intended for the eyes of my dearest friends who even bother to read and take an interest in my mundane thoughts. It is..of course open for reading if you wish to but a consumer discretion: May contain mushy content. Haha..Cheers to all! :D
To XL:
I am clueless as to what would actually happen to me if you cease to be part of my life anymore...but I am not really mulling over that possibility either...and I honestly do not fathom what could have sown the thoughts in you that derived your insecurity but I have a conscience as clear as any that you are peerless in my heart...still goin strong my dear!
"It just wouldn't rhyme without you!"--I still yearn for the day when we can walk down the aisle to this line :)))

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